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Ovid, from the Amores, Book 1, Elegy XV, His Immortality For over 2,000 years I have been a blood drinker. During that time, as even in my mortal life, I have spent my life on a quest for knowledge and truth. To be a creature of intellect and reason, and to educate myself to the furthest extent of my capability has always been my goal. I have been known to most of my kind as the wise teacher. As the guardian of the Mother and Father for nearly two millenniums, I held sole responsibility for the continued immortality of all of our kind. To further understand the world of men and embrace it has been my greatest desire. I am one who will go to great lengths to blend in with mortals and become one with them. To live without that which I love most, is unbearably lonely for me. Anger has always been my greatest enemy. I have made my greatest errors when I allowed it to overtake me. Some might think me too controlling, but I expect no less of myself, than I do of others. I was born during the time of Caesar Augustus, during the height of the Roman Empire. I have witnessed many civilizations rise and fall since. I believed for a long while in the divinity of man, but in recent years his inability to learn from past mistakes, and his penchant for violence, has shaken my faith in this somewhat. I still find logic and science preferable to the worship of deities, but I strive to keep myself open to all possibilities in life. I never asked for this life, I was kidnapped and made immortal by a band of Druids as a sacrifice to an ancient immortal they believed was a God, against my will. However, I will not say that I would wish for my mortality to be restored to me now. To bear witness to the passages of time and observe mans progress through the centuries, is something I could not give up now willingly. I have known great love in my life, but it has been my misfortune to repeatedly be separated against my will for very long stretches of time from my immortal family of Pandora, Amadeo, and Bianca. I acknowledge that some of these separations were due to my own anger and pride, but it is my hope they now have begun to realize that there also were responsibilities I bore then that I had to consider first, for the sake of immortals everywhere. The great sacrifice I had to make, which caused such pain to myself as well as my family, was the need to protect Those Who Must be Kept, the parents of our kind, who are now no longer with us. For nearly all of my immortal existence, they had to be tended to solely by myself, for if either one came to harm, all immortals everywhere would perish as well. They lived, yet were as statues, and I kept lonely vigil through the centuries, in attendance upon them. I am free now of this burden for the first time in my existence. Rather than mourn what is past, I find myself more eager than ever before to absorb all the knowledge in the world around me to the fullest extend that I can, as well as to attempt to heal the wounds of my family. I am also an artist, a painter most often. I explore the nuances of the mortal world via my artistry, and thereby attempt to comprehend ever more fully the extent of my love for all things mortal. The great philosophers have been my spiritual guides through time. I owe them an enormous debt, for continually giving me the stimulation which I find necessary to compel me to stay engaged in this world, and accept the passing of the ages with as much grace as I can. ~Marius deRomanus
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